Self-Realization...

So once again, it's been a while. Looking over my last post I can honestly say, things have changed a lot! I have my own place, I have an awesome roommate, work has changed a lot, I have a new calling and I'm about to turn the dreaded 3-0. I have a revelation though the other day about that...I have a decision to make, I can either dread it and be upset that I'm almost 30, or I can celebrate and embrace it and enjoy all the things I get to do at 30 while still single. So I'm choosing to do.....the latter of course. Who in their right mind would say "dread it"? I mean really? Who would?! In today's world there are amazing things that we can do. There is really very little holding us back. The only obstacles that keep us from attaining our dreams are the obstacles that we put up ourselves, but here's the secret, we can remove them anytime that we want to! It's perplexing isn't it? I spent some time last night talking with a close friend about the younger generation and their lack of willingness to try anything new or difficult. If they'd just get out of their own way there is no stopping them from doing everything that they could ever imagine.

Ok, now back to me. I'm almost 30 and there is no stopping me! I do have to take a step back and get myself on track again. You know the old "new years resolutions", go to bed at a normal time, get up early, work out more, eat healthy, blah, blah, blah. I really want to go paragliding, and paddle boarding, and run another 1/2 marathon this year. I also want to build a relationship with someone that I trust. That's one thing that I struggle with, a lot. I struggle to trust guys and to truly open up to them. That is what I have to work on the most. I have to make a conscious effort, constantly, to be myself, to be real, to be open, to share my actual feelings instead of just saying "I'm good." "Work's fine." How many of us do that? We just give glazed over answers. Just think about how much better our world could be if we opened ourselves up to other people and REALLY HONESTLY opened ourselves up to hearing them as well!  It would be amazing. Nothing short of spectacular. Ok, that's it, that's what I'm really going to focus on. If I go paddle boarding or jump off a mountain with a parachute attached it'll be awesome, but if I open myself up to someone and build a trust-filled relationship that will be the true accomplishment of turning 30 :)